The evils of cupcakes
A sure way to make yourself obsessive? Label foods bad.
I haven’t had a cupcake in almost a year. For the last 3 months it’s been because of food sensitivities, but before that it was because I was so scared of the calories.
The restaurant I worked at sold mini cupcakes. I always desperately wanted one, but I wasn’t willing to spend the 300 calories that one was. I thought eating one was weakness. And I was SHOCKED when coworkers would eat TWO. It seemed like this crazy overindulgence that would lead to obesity.
Now I look back and roll my eyes at myself. I lived with this black cloud over my head when it came to food, because I wasn’t allowed to ever eat the things I liked and if I did I would condemn myself for a week.
I remember one night when I sobbed in the bathroom to my mom. I remember telling her how all I could ever think about was food: when my next meal was, what it was, how much I would have to work out to lose weight, how much of a pig I was because all I could think about was food. And I could never enjoy food when I ate it because the entire time I focused on the calories in it or how much everyone around me was judging me for eating.
Now I realize that one of the most detrimental things you can do to yourself is cut out foods completely. You HAVE to allow yourself the things you like, or you will set yourself up for a binge, for obsessiveness, for self-hatred.
Cupcakes aren’t evil. And if you want one, enjoy it.
I for one can’t wait til I can eat them again.
<3elle
