Thoughts on Disordered Eating
As someone who has spent most of the last 4 years very close to the monster that is disordered eating and eating disorders, I have a few thoughts that I’d like to share with my 1000+ followers. I don’t have a lot of time at the moment so I’m just gonna share a little snapshot of what’s been on my mind today.
Looking back, the worst thing about disordered eating is how inherently self-centered it makes you. You cannot see beyond your next meal, beyond your own nose. You spend all your time calculating calories and staring at yourself in mirrors (and windows and elevators and spoons) and bemoaning how “fat” you are or feel or look and how you used to be so thin or how if you just lost 10 pounds you would be as light as air and everyone would love you and respect you.
You spend all your time thinking about yourself. You can’t see the good things in your life because they’re all clouded by your obsession with food. The obsession gets to the point where you can’t enjoy anything you eat because you’re terrified of it and its seemingly obvious effect on your body.
Not only does this not promote healthy living of the mind, body, and spirit, but it doesn’t even help you lose weight if that’s your goal.
I say stop it. It is extremely hard, I know. Much easier said then done. It took a major health problem that virtually stopped me from being able to eat 95% of food for me to snap out of it. Now I am recovering and you better bet when I can eat it all again, I’m not going to waste time counting/dreading every bite.
You NEED to change your thoughts. Physically change them. Google “Automatic negative thoughts” and read up on them. THAT’s what you’re thinking. You want to be happy? Learn to love your body for its incredible ability. You are wonderfully made. Learn to appreciate how GREAT you have it. You have eyes to see. Ears to hear. Legs to walk. You are incredibly blessed.
More later chickadees.
<3elle
