thereluctantrawfoodist asked: I am not sure how I came not to be following you again .. Tumblr moment I guess. How are you doing? x
Haha no worries. I am doing alright. I have lost a lot of weight but it’s mostly due to the health problems I’ve been dealing with for the past 6 months.
Tell you what, an eating disorder is the last thing on my mind right now.
Friends, be thankful that you CAN eat. I am currently battling (and winning) a complicated health issue which has limited my diet to brown rice, steamed vegetables, and fruit. I’m currently adding potatoes and other sources of protein, but it’s trial and error, and I’ve done a lot of “why me”-ing over the past few months.
Now I’m just in the stages of healing and realizing that the stress I’ve put on myself is part of what got me into this mess.
I’m learning that I can control my mood and that my thoughts can be very very powerful. While before I was in a downward spiral of health issues compounded by anxiety, depression, and an eating disorder, now I would say that I’m starting to heal the health issue and am daily learning how to combat the anxiety and depression.
So how am I doing?
Well, it’s hard to eat things. And some nights I cry when I’m in pain. But I’ve felt happiness again for the first time in months. And I have felt it daily. I can watch movies and read books and focus on them. I’m not incredibly fatigued every day. My passion for life is coming back. And I feel more centered spiritually.
I guess I’m taking it one day at a time, learning to love and care for myself, and in doing that, healing.
How are you? :)
<3elle
