Having health issues where I can’t eat anything
has made me realize that damn. I wasted so much fucking time not eating good things. Now I can’t have them.
That fucking sucks.
Eat ice cream and enjoy it. Even better, eat custard or GELATO. Buy a candy bar one day and eat the whole thing. Have some mozzarella sticks. Eat bacon.
SAVOR chocolate.
Have a cupcake. Eat fro-yo loaded with toppings. Slurp some mac and cheese. Have a piece of cake with fondant icing. Have a flurry or a blizzard. Enjoy french fries. Eat grilled cheese. Munch on taco bell. Eat nachos, gummie worms, chicken fingers, CHOCOLATE.
I fucking miss it all. I miss all the time I wasted crying after eating something I actually enjoyed. I wish I could have that time back. I wish I could eat that ice cream cone again and think “God this is delicious and a necessary part of life, enjoying the food I eat and allowing myself to enjoy things that aren’t so healthy now and then.”
I WISH.
Enjoy the fucking nice things in life dammit. You don’t know how long you will be able to.
I plan on eating all of these things when I get better.
I’ve lost almost 10 pounds just from this health issue. Yeah I guess I’m thin now. Fuck that. I will be completely healthy again and I will enjoy life to the fullest.
And fuck any thoughts that try to get in the way of that.
