I’ve stopped looking at thinspo.
I used to really support it. In fact this used to be a thinspo tumblr. But i realized that the more time I spent on it the more depressed I got. The more I focused on my thighs in comparison with some coked out baby doll pixie teenager photoshopped beyond recognition, the more I slipped into an altered reality where the most important thing was eating less to feel more powerful. To feel accomplished.
Because for some reason the girls in the thinspo pics wield so much power.
Even though most of them are 15-16 year old girls taking pictures of themselves in front of mirrors and pretending to look candid and bored and “so over it.” I am so tired of wistful waifish things smoking or looking through the camera, with “you are not adequate” stares. Like somehow these girls hold the answers when really they’re just as fucked up as the rest of us.
Stop spending all your time looking at thinspo. Like it will help you. Like you’re doing yourself a favor by looking at it and bemoaning how “less than” you are and how SOMEDAY you will be JUST LIKE one of these girls.
Not gonna happen. I’m sorry, it just won’t. Because whatever a picture may capture, it’s just a single frame of one girl’s life, whether she is cheesing in a bikini or strutting down a runway. A person’s weight is not a measure of how “together” they are.
